The story of a spoiled girl who forgot how to climb

Hello dear friends!

I woke up this morning with a positive attitude. I’ve been really confused about my life and my career and I still am, but I felt motivated to sort shit out this week. I called my dad to get some advice. Let’s just say I didn’t catch him in a great mood and our conversation just left me in tears feeling like a complete failure. I know he is trying to help me in his own tough-love-kind-of-way and I know I’m no picknick as a daughter but he also have no idea how hard I’m trying and what a progress I’ve made. I’d like to get some cred for that instead of having someone point out all the misstakes I’ve made. I´ts not like Im not aware of them but if I was gonna spend every second regretting the misstakes I’ve made, I wouldn’t do anything else.

I’m gonna be honest with you, I’m spoiled. I’ve been spoiled my whole life. Financially spoiled that is. My parents have been separated since I was 3 and since then I’ve always just lived with my mom and I mostly just met my dad at special occasions because he has always worked a lot. However he has always supported me financially. Cliché much?

My dad would show up twice a year on my birthday and Christmas and bring me the coolest gifts or take me to Toys R’us and let me pick whatever I wanted. Preferably something really huge like a bouncy house just to mess with my mom. It takes no Einstein to tell this messes with a Childs brain.  I have met my dad more often later in my life but our relationship have never been the same as me and my moms.

I know I’m spoiled. I’ve never been ungrateful though. I was never the kid who would cry and scream on the floor because I didn’t get what I wanted (maybe because my dad always bought me what I wanted… just kidding).

But I have always had that security in the back of my mind that my dad will always save me if I’m broke. When I was in school I never felt guilty about my dad helping me with money. I was so hard working and committed and I felt like I would be able to pay back one day because my education and ambition would make me rich and successful. This obviously just added to the pressure and I went pretty much straight into the wall at one point. I had to quit school in Paris (you’ve heard the story) and move back home with no education and no job. I lost my ambition for a while and since then I’ve had to really struggle for the first time in my life. It sounds pathetic to say struggle because obviously there are people who have it way worse and my problems are tiny in comparison. I’ve still had my dad to help me whenever I needed but this time it’s not without guilt. I am so confused and I don’t really know what to do with my life career wise. I have a lot of ideas but they all require a budget which I don’t have. So I’ve been struggling with where to begin and how to reach my goal.

I know that I will be successful, I’ve always known it. My problem is I’m not sure how to get there and I am so stressed about getting there asap. I know I’m still very young but the thought of spending 3 years of my life in school is just freaking me out. I want things to happen right now. I’m ready to work harder than anyone but does it have to take suuuuuuuuuuuch a long time before reaching success? If someone told me: In 6 months you’re gonna be successful if you work hard on this. I could do just about anything, but not knowing how or when or what is such an agony. I am so scared of wasting my time. I want to spend it on the stuff that counts.

The frustrating part is I know I would be the best boss in the universe. If someone gave me a company to run right now or unlimited money to start my own I would be so freaking good at it. I know that’s not how it works and that you have to start from the bottom and work your way to the top. I just know I am so much better at the job up there on the top than all the stuff down here at the bottom. I’m down here looking for an elevator to get straight to the top without having to climb the ladder. The ladder is so crowded and people are elbowing each other to get to the top, it scares me to even get in there. I was on that ladder you know. I hadn’t come super far but I was on my way. Somehow I lost my grip and fell down all the way to the bottom and after that It was like I forgot how to climb. I know there is no elevator and no one is ever gonna build one. So if I wanna get to the top I will have to take the ladder.

I realise when writing this what an insane and naive person I sound like but this is an honest blog and this is where I’m at right now. I’m gonna sharpen my elbows and get  back on that ladder. Wish me luck.

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Happy ugly easter!

Easter is finally here and it’s time to decorate our homes in pretty pastel colours and boil a billion eggs. I remember easter when I was growing up. My mom would bring out the ugly little chickens with one eye and three legs and glue all over that me and my brother made for her in kindergarten. The ugly easter decorations collection would just add more items year after year until we were old enough to realise we had no talent and tell her she didn’t have to display the things we made her when we were kids. What a relief that must have been for her. Putting your interior dreams aside for years to make your proud little kids happy, that´s love my friends.
When I have kids and they bring me ugly little glue-chickens, I feel like I’ll be the kind of mom that says “ohh that’s so pretty honey, I’m gonna put it here inside the cabinet so it doesn’t break”… Just kidding, I’ll love and display every ugly little thing my kids make for me. But since kids are still far away in my plans I’ll enjoy this time to decorate my home just the way I want to.
Ugly chickens aside, easter is one of my favourite holidays. It’s colourful and happy and usually spring is coming to visit. I’ve put together a collage with inspiration for both your home but also some creative ideas for an easter dinner.  Hope you enjoy!

                          

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Foodie weekend

Hello dear friends!
I’ve had such a lovely weekend with my friends. On Saturday I met up with Klara to try out a vegan ice cream place called Nicecream, in Vesterbro here in Copenhagen. We ended up doing some vintageshopping as well and had lunch at a place called Zakabona. It was such a lovely day and the food was really tasty. The ice cream tho was to freakin’ die for! I had an ice-cream cookie that was so tasty, I’ve been craving it ever since we left the place.
On Sunday I went to do some sightseeing around the city with my boyfriend and some of his friends that were visiting from Romania. While I was still getting my beauty sleep they went to see the little mermaid (emphasis on little). Then I met up with them and we went to Nyhavn and paper island to have some lunch at the street food market. We had butter chicken that was so delicious. (If you’re reading this Emma, I had coriander and I actually loved it, can’t believe I’ve caved and started to enjoy that soap tasting garbage).
After paper island we went to Christiania, no man in their 20’s comes to Copenhagen without having that on the list. We walked trough it, soaking up some sun and passive weed smoke. Then we went to Bogdans brother to chill and play games. A really lovely weekend, I’d say.


 

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Saturday brunchin’

Hello dear friends!
Today’s been a really chill and cozy day. I spent the whole day with my love. We slept in (he slept in, my inner clock woke me up at 7…) After a calm morning we went into the city to have brunch. We went to Nyhavn to sit at one of the restaurants outside. So did the rest of Copenhagen on the first warm, sunny Saturday in 6 months the weekend after payday. Who knew?..
We couldn’t find a table anywhere so we ended up on a parallel street that was way calmer, right next to the Swedish embassy. We had the tastiest brunch ever at a café which name I don’t remember (luckily this is not a travelguide because that would be a disaster).
Right now I’m home alone, while my boyfriend is visiting his brother. Tomorrow I’m starting work at 5:30(!) Did I tell you I got a new job? I’m working at Copenhagen airport in a store called Beck Søndergaard. I’m really enjoying it so far.  There is such a positiv energy at the airport. You can almost smell adventure and excitement in the air. People are so happy and nice from being on their way to or from foreign places.
Here are some pictures from my day with Bogdan. There was seriously no decent picture of me so I’m just gonna give you some food and buildings, hope you enjoy!

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