Chill weekend

This weekend I spent in Malmö with my family. The only time left the house was to go to the grocery store. The rest of the time I was relaxing on the couch, blasting Michael Bubles Christmas album and reading magazines. I did dress up, but only to step 5 meters out the front door and force my patient brother to take pictures on me for the blog and gram. The cold I had catched got a million times worse after freezing my ass off in front of the garage. So now I’m doomed sounding like an alcoholic crazy cat lady until I get my voice back. Scroll down for outfit details.


Outfit details (adlinks):

Knitted sweater, Gina Tricot HERE || Flared pants, Gina Tricot HERE || Quilted bag, Similar HERE  || Glitter heels, Similar HERE

Lots of love,

Lisa Belinda

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My weekend


This weekend I spent in Sweden with my love. Poor guy barely got to set foot on Swedish grounds before I dragged him to a nice setting and made him take a million pictures of me for Instagram. How did I get so lucky? He is so sweet and patient and also a great photographer (except when he zooms into my face and takes pictures in the worst of angles just to mess with me)…

We had a really chill weekend. We went for coffee in the city, drove to the mall and cooked the yummiest falafel for dinner. Saturday evening we spent in bed playing Super Mario Odyssey on the Nintendo Switch. I love having a tech nerdy boyfriend who buys the coolest shit that I get to use without having to admit I also get excited about it.

As if the weekend wasn’t cozy enough, my love spoiled me with a beautiful bracelet from Edblad I innocently drooled over at Royal Design. This was truly a blessed weekend but before you barf in your mouths over my Instahappy life, let me remind you I’ve lived with crippling anxiety for the past years (a lot less now though, thanks to CBD-Oil). My life has been and is still chaotic beyond words. Most weekends I’m too drained from my job to even leave the house (yeah, I hustle like the most basic of bitches, this blog doesn’t pay enough to sustain me yet).  I deserve an Instaperfect weekend every now and thnt. I’m not gonna shit coat it to not sound like an obnoxious blogger who rubs her happy life in the faces of others.

Hope you had a cozy weekend as well, whether you spent it being the cheesiest couple in town or alone in bed eating your weight in Oreos. We don’t judge here.

Silk dress, HM  // Over-knee boots, Aldo // Cross-body bag, Zara // Oversized sweater Vintage (aka. found it when I went treasure hunting in my grandmas closet).

I love my sparkly new bracelet! It goes so well with my favorite watch. My boyfriend calls me a crow… Not sure what he means by that…

Bracelet, Edblad // Watch, Skagen

 

Lots of love,

Lisa Belinda

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CBD-Oil for anxiety: Update

A few weeks ago I wrote a post about CBD-Oil. I had heard so many people talk about the benefits of it and particularly how it could help those who are struggling with anxiety. You can read my post HERE. I ordered a few products from Hemply Balance and I have been trying out their 7,5% water-soluble CBD-Oil for a month now (Get it HERE). I’ve been itching to write this post but I wanted to really try it out for a few weeks before giving you my opinion. To start with, my expectations weren’t super high because I have tried many natural methods that supposed to help with anxiety, before and nothing have really made any significant difference. I saw this as an interesting experiment and I dove into it with an open mind and inevitably a lot of hope.

I followed the instructions on the bottle and started with 1 single drop morning and evening for a whole week. That might seem like nothing but I had heard about people starting taking CBD-Oil and gotten increased anxiety and after doing my research I found out that is most likely to happen if you are taking too much CBD-Oil or if you’re starting off with a too high dose or increasing it too fast. So I was determined to follow the instructions and start with a very small dose and slowly increase it after one week. Truth is, I actually felt a difference already the first days. I didn’t feel strange in any way but I felt calm and peaceful which to me has been a very rare feeling. I felt more confident in myself and more capable of taking care of myself. I don’t know if this was a placebo effect, if it was due to other factors or if it was because of the CBD- Oil but I truly felt better quite immediately.

After one week I’ve increased the dose with one drop every 4th day or so. I’m sure you could increase the dose faster than I have but I’d rather be safe than sorry and since I felt better already after one drop, I didn’t feel the need to rush it. Now I’m taking 6 drops morning and evening and according to the instructions I can take up to 13 drops morning and evening but I don’t feel the need to increase that much at the moment.
During this whole time, I have felt overall better. My thoughts are clearer and I can think more rational than before. I still feel anxiety for time to time and I have had some days when I’ve actually been feeling really fragile and anxious, not as many as before but there have been some. The difference is I’ve been able to think much more clearly and not let the anxiety completely take over and that is truly an improvement.

Since I’ve been taking it for a month I have also been able to see which effect it has on PMS. For me, PMS has not only meant irritable and moody. It’s also meant significantly increased anxiety. In fact, I think 80% of my worse anxiety is caused by these demon hormones. Normally I start feeling the anxiousness come creeping two weeks before my period and slowly but surely increase day by day until it absolutely peeks the days before period and it feels like I will have to stay in bed and shake with anxiety for the rest of my life because I don’t know how to function as a human being.

With the CBD-Oil though, I handled PMS pretty damn well. I could clearly tell I was PMS: ing because I started getting moody and irritable, however, it started about one week before period instead of two weeks before like it normally does. But most importantly, I didn’t feel any increased anxiety at this point. Not until two or three days before period I started feeling more fragile and I had one day when I felt really anxious but one day is a whole fucking lot better than two weeks. Although I was still experiencing PMS it was much more bearable because I still felt like a functioning human being and could think clearly. I could stand in line at the grocery store and be annoyed out of my fucking mind at seniors who decided they should go grocery shopping on a Friday afternoon with the rest of the country when they could have gone any other day or time when the rest of us are at work. But I could laugh at the irony instead of letting the frustration take over my sanity. And most importantly I didn’t feel so anxious that I had to just leave my stuff and get out of there.

If you’re a highly sensitive person like me, chances are you will most likely always be more prone to anxiety but that doesn’t mean anyone should have to deal with anxiety on a daily basis and definitely not to the degree that it becomes debilitating. I would definitely recommend CBD-Oil for those struggling with anxiety. It’s quite pricey but it’s worth it. I also want to stretch that there is no, and will never be any “one cure fix all” when it comes to mental health issues. It’s a combination of things that you incorporate into your lifestyle. During this time when I have taken the CBD-Oil, I have also gone to therapy once a week, I have eaten healthy, I have exercised and I have tried to meditate every day (I obviously failed to do it every day but I have done it a lot more than before).
However, I know how impossible all those things feel when you are in a bad place mentally and I truly feel that the CBD Oil has helped a lot to make me feel good enough so I could get the strength to do all those things that will make me feel even better. Truth is before I started using the CBD-Oil, I had such a hard time meditating or doing yoga because it made me feel even more anxious. Trying to breathe deeply and feeling the sensations in the body was too scary and overwhelming and could even result in a panic attack. Since using the CBD-Oil my nervous system have felt much more balanced and I’ve been able to meditate and do yoga and actually benefit from it instead of feeling worse from it. It’s like a domino effect. If you’re stuck down there in that dark mental hole, the CBD- Oil is like the rope that can help you climb out of there. Once you get up you can’t rely on CBD-Oil to fix all your problems but it can be one of the contributing factors to your mental wellbeing and it can help you feel strong enough to actually get out and exercise, peaceful enough to sit down and meditate, motivated enough to eat foods that will nurture you instead of the opposite and most importantly help your thoughts stay clear enough so that when anxiety does strike, you can handle it instead of getting overwhelmed.

This is my personal experience and opinions with the CBD-Oil and I can’t say it will work for everyone but if you’re struggling with anxiety I highly advise you to give it a try. Be sure to get a CBD-Oil that is guaranteed 100% free from THC and start with a small dose and slowly increase after a week. You can order safe, high-quality CBD-Products from Hemply Balance (HERE). I recommend the 7,5 % water-soluble oil (HERE) because you can mix it with some juice so it doesn’t taste bad. If you mix it with water it tastes like I’d imagine pine-tree would taste so it’s not horrible but juice conceals the bitter taste completely.

Are you using CBD-Oil? Or are you curious to try it? Tell me about your experience in the comments!

Lots of love,

Lisa Belinda

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The secret to long lashes

I’ve gotten a lot of compliments and questions regarding my lashes lately. I don’t have fake lashes but I’d be lying if I said they’re all natural. I mean, they are natural but the only reason they have grown so long and thick is that I’ve been using an eyelash serum. I have tried a couple of different eyelash serums through the years and many of them have been overpriced and not very effective.  Then I came across XLash and OH. MY. LORD.  It’s so damn effective. I saw results already after a week or so and the lashes just keep getting longer and thicker.

Most of you know I’m a huge advocate for natural alternatives to conventional beauty products. What I absolutely love about XLash is that it contains effective and natural ingredients that helps nourish and grow the lashes longer and thicker. It doesn’t contain any harmful chemicals and won’t irritate the sensitive skin around the eyes. It’s definitely not cheap but its also not as expensive as many other eyelash serums on the market.  If you’re like me who get panic from the thought of laying down still for an hour while someone puts eyelash extensions on your lashes, then this serum is definitely worth it. I just recently started using the brow serum from the same brand but I haven’t used it enough to see any significant results, but I’m definitely curious to see if it’s as effective as the eyelash serum.

As a little cherry on top, the website where I buy these from currently has 20 % off these products!

Click HERE to buy the eyelash serum and HERE to buy the brow serum (adlinks).

This picture was taken a few weeks ago and my lashes have grown even more since then.

Lots of love,

Lisa Belinda

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CBD-Oil to treat anxiety?

Have you heard about CBD-Oil? Do you think it’s something potheads take to get high or did you know it could be used for entirely different purposes? I decided to try it out on my mission to beat anxiety, keep reading to find out more.


A few weeks ago I was prescribed antidepressants for my anxiety. I had experienced a horrible panic attack and I felt like I could no longer take the internal pain and stress I was suffering from. I have never been suicidal and I can’t say I was at this point either but I felt so scared of my own mind that I literally thought couldn’t take it anymore. It was a horrifying feeling. I contacted my doctors’ clinic, begging for an emergency appointment. The next day I was sitting in my doctor’s office, telling her about my exhausted mind and we agreed that I would start a treatment of cognitive behavior therapy in combination with antidepressants. The doctor actually suggested I started therapy first, before getting on the medications but I was so desperate for something to ease my mind that I insisted on starting medication right away. I still had to hold my horses though, because they first needed to do some tests to make sure everything was physically fine with me. After a few days, she called me, saying all my tests showed everything was fine and she had prescribed me the pills. First thing I did after picking them up, was opening gigantic bible of possible side effects. Partly because I’m a tad hypochondriac but possibly also because I subconsciously wanted a reason not to take them. I knew there were side effects to antidepressants but I had no idea how many and how severe they could be. The irony of getting a pill prescribed for anxiety, reading about the side effect of those pills, only to get even more anxiety just made every cell in my body scream at me not to take them. It was like a loud, red siren inside me went off, signaling not to put that into my body.

The past 6 months I’ve carried a relaxant pill with me everywhere I go, in case of emergency. They’re really strong and actually classified as narcotics, which comes with a risk of addiction. Therefore I should only take them when I absolutely need to, but lately, I have felt like I had to take one a bit too often and that’s obviously not good at all. Aside from the fact that it’s so clearly not good to be popping narcotics every other day, those pills don’t do a shit to help with my anxiety long term. they’re concealing the scary feelings and making me relaxed at the moment but 12 hours later when they wear off my mind is back in chaos.

I’m a very hippie person and I have a core belief that many things can and should be treated holistically. I know that we can never actually heal our wounds only by concealing them. We need to treat the root cause of the problem in order to get rid of the symptoms. I’m sure that therapy will help a lot with that but since my mind has become rather damaged by these rigid patterns of anxiety, I need something to help me ease my thoughts so that my brain can create new neural pathways without getting tossed back into the anxious pathways. This was why I felt like I had to take antidepressants. I knew that I needed to stop only putting out fires and get a long-term solution to help my brain heal itself and I thought maybe antidepressants is the only solution.

As I was contemplating whether to go against my intuition and take the damn pills or not, I came across James Aspeys Instagram story, where he talked about the amazing benefits of CBD-oil and how effective it can be to treat anxiety and depression. I had heard about CBD-oil easing the symptoms of Parkinson’s and epilepsy before but I had no idea it could have any effect on anxiety and panic attacks so I hadn’t researched it at all. I turned to my dear old frienemie Google to see what others had to say about CBD-oils effects on anxiety and I found many praising reviews from people who’s had amazing results from it. I did get a bit cautious though because I had no interest in getting high and I thought all CBD-oils contain at least some THC (Tetrahydrocannabinol: The main psychoactive substance in Cannabis, which makes you high). After further research, I found out that there are also CBD-oils which have had the THC removed, although it seemed to be common that many of them could still contain traces and it felt too sketchy to order on Amazon and not be sure what I would actually get.  Lastly, I came across a Swedish brand called Hemply Balance which sells CBD products created from high-quality produce and that are guaranteed 100% free from THC (meaning it’s completely legal and doesn’t get you high).

I decided that before I even consider putting anti-depressants in my body, I will try every natural method on the planet, so I decided to try out CBD-oil for myself and see how it works for me. I got their best selling product, which is a water-soluble CBD-oil with 7,5 % CBD (Here). I also got the capsules with 7,5mg CBD (Here)  and a skin salve (Here) Mostly because I got curious to see what CBD could also do for the skin.

I wanna add that this is not a sponsored post, I simply want to try these products and felt like Simply Balance seemed to be a trustworthy and safe company to buy from because they’re very transparent on their website and very helpful and easy to reach when you have any questions. I will give my 100% honest opinion about these products and see if they are able to help me feel happier and calmer.

The product I will start using for my anxiety is the oil and I will keep you updated here on the blog and on my Instagram and share my experience so stay tuned!

The water-soluble CBD-Oil is supposed to be easily absorbed by the body and you can mix it with whatever liquid you like so It doesn’t taste like licking an ashtray like many of the CBD-Oils you drop under your tongue does. (Also, somebody get this girl a manicure, geeez…)

I’m not sure what CBD is supposed to do for the skin, but I’m curious to try. Maybe it can save those dry cuticles you just had the pleasure of witnessing. It also contains a bunch of natural oils and butters that I know are beneficial for the skin.

Lots of love,

Lisa Belinda

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Fall fashion

You all know I have an intense love for autumn. Whether you share this autumn-bliss with me or not, you can’t deny the fact that fall fashion is PURE HAPPINESS. The fashion magazines double in size to fit all the inspiration, fresh from the catwalk. It’s impossible to pass by a store, displaying their new collections without feeling a tickle in your stomach and your wallet pulling you towards the sliding doors like a magnet. Did I mention Rebecka Bloomwood is my spirit animal?

I ordered some new clothes from Jacqueline De Yong from one of my absolute favorite web shops, LY Copenhagen.  I am completely obsessed with this combo of a bright red, cozy, knitted sweater and a soft and flowy, dusty pink skirt. If you want to shop some fresh new outfits to walk confident into this new season, head over to LY Copenhagen and use code “Lisa20” to get 20% off your whole purchase! You’re welcome, my friends.

 

  1. Red Knitted Sweater HERE // 2. Pink Midi-Skirt HERE // 3. Sneakers Adidas Superstar HERE // 4. Bag, Zara (old)

Lots of love,

Lisa Belinda

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Autumn love

There is something about fall and particularly this pre-fall we just entered, that makes me feel so happy and inspired. The summer humidity is replaced by a fresh, cooler air and it makes me feel high on life. To me, this time of year is way more like a “New Year” than the actual New Year. I wanna star up new projects, make changes and explore new places.

There is also a certain melancholy about this time of year. It’s both beautiful and sad at the same time. It’s so clear that something is ending and it brings a certain sadness but at the same time, I am so ready for the new season to begin. My whole body is craving some change. Now, as we are slowly approaching September I can feel my motivation peaking and my thoughts becoming clearer.

Welcome autumn!

 

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Lots of love,

Lisa Belinda

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“There are those who are humble and those who are about to be” -Debra Silverman

When I first started this blog, about two years ago. I was living a very holistic life and I was writing mostly about beauty and wellness. During this time I was using almost only natural and organic products and constantly educating myself on the different benefits of natural skincare ingredients vs. the dangers of many conventional skincare ingredients. I was always reading books and articles and watching youtube videos, learning about health, nutrition, and wellness. It was not only a huge passion of mine but also my baby blanket, that helped me cope with stress and anxiety. I have understood long ago that our mind and body are not two completely separated things. They are connected and you can’t have a healthy mind with an unhealthy body and vice versa.

I slipped out of the holistic mindset for a while as my life got turned upside down about a year ago. At this point, I also shut down the blog temporarily and went under the radar from the life I had had. This was when Bogdan and I had just split up and I spent the following 8 months living a very destructive and toxic lifestyle. I was partying a lot, drinking a lot, being horribly irresponsible and basically doing anything and everything I could to drown my sorrows. I was constantly trying to distract myself and to not feel because I knew that if I stopped to think or slowed down my speed, even for a second or allowed my self to feel the pain I was carrying, it would have killed me.

This made me very distant to the person that I actually was and that I am. The girl I was before the breakup was slipping further and further away until I could barely see her anymore. During this time “wellness” was the last thing I cared about. I started using beauty products that I knew was toxic, I didn’t think twice about whether something was cruelty-free or not, I didn’t eat enough,  I drank way too much alcohol, way too often and I even smoked every once in a while. I had always hated cigarette-smoke and I still thought it tasted horrible. It made me cough and I knew it was bad for me but I did it anyway. I  fact that was the only reason I did it. I was chasing dangers. The rush I used to get from love was replaced by the rush I got from adrenaline. I didn’t care about anything anymore.

At the end of this period, inevitably life caught up with me. I remember having meltdowns and panic attacks that would last for days because I was no longer able to distract myself. My body got tired of living life the way I had and as soon as I slowed down my pace, even a little bit, my emotions came back and hit me in the face, full force. As though that wasn’t enough I also became aware of what a horrible person I had turned into during this time. I suddenly became aware of how much I had hurt the people who loved me. But maybe the most devastating realization was how much I had hurt myself. This still haunts me and I can look at pictures of myself as a child thinking “how could you do this to her?”

When I left Copenhagen I was far from “recovered”. My robot facade had peeled off a bit but instead of having an instant wakeup call and snap back to reality, I was living in a weird gray zone. This is where I became horribly unhappy. My baggage had caught up with me but I had no idea how to deal with it. I withdrew from my friends and I was feeling so lonely. Whevener anyone reached out to me I pushed them away. My mind was yet not clear and I was only feeling angry with my surroundings. I felt angry with the city for ruining me. I felt angry with my friends and the people around me for dragging me into that toxicity. Truth is, I was only running away. I have always loved Copenhagen and that city has taken care of me when I’ve been alone. That city carries some of my most beautiful memories. That city is where I met the love of my life for the first time. I’m done blaming other people or places for my own mistakes. In the end, I make my own decisions regardless of the people around me or the places I’m in.

During this whole time, the one person that I could still always rely on was Bogdan. Even though we had broken up, he was still there for me. He was the one I called when I wanted to escape this manic life that I had. He was still the only one I could be myself with 100%. He was the only one that could make me forget all the pain for a brief moment. He was the only one that could still make me laugh until my stomach hurt. He was the only one I could spend Sundays in bed with, watching Netflix all day without feeling any pressure of being someone I actually wasn’t. He was the one that dropped everything and came across the whole city to pick me up and bring me home when I was having a panic meltdown. And in the end, he was the one who still loved me no matter the amount of pain I had caused him. I was damaged cargo. I was an abandoned little bird with broken wings and legs that could barely carry me. He took me in and pieced me back together bit by bit. He was just as hurt as I was, if not more, and I was the one who had caused him pain. Yet he was the one taking care of me as though I was the victim. I am so grateful our love was able to survive this period. Despite all the damage that’s been made, we stand strong together once again and I thank the universe for him every day.

With this post, I wish to close the door to this painful time of my life. I will do all I can to not beat myself up over the past because I know it won’t change anything. What I can do, is to live in the “now” because that is really all we have.  What I can do, is to make sure I’m being authentic and honest with myself. What I can do, is to make sure I’m always humble and kind.  What I can do, is to make sure I never push my feelings away no matter how painful they are to feel. Because if there is one thing I’ve learned it’s that those feelings will catch up with you sooner or later.

As for this blog, I will still keep posting honest stories and share my struggles and learnings. I will also incorporate way more health and wellness posts. Like I mentioned at the beginning of this post, the connection between mental, and physical wellness is unavoidable. On my way to recovery and finding my way back to my old happy self, all aspects of health have been crucial.  With meditation, exercise, and the right nutrition I can finally say I’m feeling like myself again. I still struggle with my mind because that has been an ongoing battle since long ago but I have found my way back to me. The girl that I thought was lost, has come back, and the baggage she now carries may be heavy and uncomfortable but it has brought wisdom and made her more humble than ever.

 

Lots of love,

Lisa Belinda

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Summer vibin’

Can we all just take a minute and appreciate the wonder that is the wrap dress? It’s comfortable, it’s fashionable, it’s versatile, it’s classy. Let’s just say Diane von Furstenberg knew what she was doing. How many times have you wore a tight bodycon dress, feeling smashing when leaving your house, only too loose all circulation in your upper body within an hour and looking like you’re 30 weeks preggo after eating? How about we leave the bodycon dress back in 2010 where it belongs and go on with our lives, never compromising comfort for style.

I am loving the heck out of this gorgeous wrap dress from Zaful! I will live in this for the rest of the summer. It’s so comfy and cute, and GUESS WHAT? It’s only 20$!

Buy it HERE

(This post is a collaboration with Zaful) Should also add they run extremely small in size, I’m wearing size M here but I could probably fit an L as well.

xx

Lisa Belinda

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