CBD-Oil to treat anxiety?

Have you heard about CBD-Oil? Do you think it’s something potheads take to get high or did you know it could be used for entirely different purposes? I decided to try it out on my mission to beat anxiety, keep reading to find out more.


A few weeks ago I was prescribed antidepressants for my anxiety. I had experienced a horrible panic attack and I felt like I could no longer take the internal pain and stress I was suffering from. I have never been suicidal and I can’t say I was at this point either but I felt so scared of my own mind that I literally thought couldn’t take it anymore. It was a horrifying feeling. I contacted my doctors’ clinic, begging for an emergency appointment. The next day I was sitting in my doctor’s office, telling her about my exhausted mind and we agreed that I would start a treatment of cognitive behavior therapy in combination with antidepressants. The doctor actually suggested I started therapy first, before getting on the medications but I was so desperate for something to ease my mind that I insisted on starting medication right away. I still had to hold my horses though, because they first needed to do some tests to make sure everything was physically fine with me. After a few days, she called me, saying all my tests showed everything was fine and she had prescribed me the pills. First thing I did after picking them up, was opening gigantic bible of possible side effects. Partly because I’m a tad hypochondriac but possibly also because I subconsciously wanted a reason not to take them. I knew there were side effects to antidepressants but I had no idea how many and how severe they could be. The irony of getting a pill prescribed for anxiety, reading about the side effect of those pills, only to get even more anxiety just made every cell in my body scream at me not to take them. It was like a loud, red siren inside me went off, signaling not to put that into my body.

The past 6 months I’ve carried a relaxant pill with me everywhere I go, in case of emergency. They’re really strong and actually classified as narcotics, which comes with a risk of addiction. Therefore I should only take them when I absolutely need to, but lately, I have felt like I had to take one a bit too often and that’s obviously not good at all. Aside from the fact that it’s so clearly not good to be popping narcotics every other day, those pills don’t do a shit to help with my anxiety long term. they’re concealing the scary feelings and making me relaxed at the moment but 12 hours later when they wear off my mind is back in chaos.

I’m a very hippie person and I have a core belief that many things can and should be treated holistically. I know that we can never actually heal our wounds only by concealing them. We need to treat the root cause of the problem in order to get rid of the symptoms. I’m sure that therapy will help a lot with that but since my mind has become rather damaged by these rigid patterns of anxiety, I need something to help me ease my thoughts so that my brain can create new neural pathways without getting tossed back into the anxious pathways. This was why I felt like I had to take antidepressants. I knew that I needed to stop only putting out fires and get a long-term solution to help my brain heal itself and I thought maybe antidepressants is the only solution.

As I was contemplating whether to go against my intuition and take the damn pills or not, I came across James Aspeys Instagram story, where he talked about the amazing benefits of CBD-oil and how effective it can be to treat anxiety and depression. I had heard about CBD-oil easing the symptoms of Parkinson’s and epilepsy before but I had no idea it could have any effect on anxiety and panic attacks so I hadn’t researched it at all. I turned to my dear old frienemie Google to see what others had to say about CBD-oils effects on anxiety and I found many praising reviews from people who’s had amazing results from it. I did get a bit cautious though because I had no interest in getting high and I thought all CBD-oils contain at least some THC (Tetrahydrocannabinol: The main psychoactive substance in Cannabis, which makes you high). After further research, I found out that there are also CBD-oils which have had the THC removed, although it seemed to be common that many of them could still contain traces and it felt too sketchy to order on Amazon and not be sure what I would actually get.  Lastly, I came across a Swedish brand called Hemply Balance which sells CBD products created from high-quality produce and that are guaranteed 100% free from THC (meaning it’s completely legal and doesn’t get you high).

I decided that before I even consider putting anti-depressants in my body, I will try every natural method on the planet, so I decided to try out CBD-oil for myself and see how it works for me. I got their best selling product, which is a water-soluble CBD-oil with 7,5 % CBD (Here). I also got the capsules with 7,5mg CBD (Here)  and a skin salve (Here) Mostly because I got curious to see what CBD could also do for the skin.

I wanna add that this is not a sponsored post, I simply want to try these products and felt like Simply Balance seemed to be a trustworthy and safe company to buy from because they’re very transparent on their website and very helpful and easy to reach when you have any questions. I will give my 100% honest opinion about these products and see if they are able to help me feel happier and calmer.

The product I will start using for my anxiety is the oil and I will keep you updated here on the blog and on my Instagram and share my experience so stay tuned!

The water-soluble CBD-Oil is supposed to be easily absorbed by the body and you can mix it with whatever liquid you like so It doesn’t taste like licking an ashtray like many of the CBD-Oils you drop under your tongue does. (Also, somebody get this girl a manicure, geeez…)

I’m not sure what CBD is supposed to do for the skin, but I’m curious to try. Maybe it can save those dry cuticles you just had the pleasure of witnessing. It also contains a bunch of natural oils and butters that I know are beneficial for the skin.

Lots of love,

Lisa Belinda

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You were going that way anyway

I sometimes get the feeling of being stuck inside my mind. It’s one of the most unpleasant feelings I’ve ever experienced because it makes me feel like a victim of life. It makes me feel as though everything and everyone is out to hurt me and I must spend all my energy just to stay alive. It’s like a war that happens within me but in that moment I don’t realize that it’s all happening within my mind. It makes me literally scared of life. At the same time, I’m terrified of death. Where does that leave me? Well, it leaves me stuck in a bubble of terror because there is no place that feels safe.

Just to make things clear, I love life. I love to live but when my brain gets stuck in this mode I become scared of life in a way. Not of life itself but of all the dangers and misery that can potentially be a part of one’s life. I always say that I am so grateful for life. I like to think that I’m this humble person who really appreciates life. But am I really though? I want to be, for sure, but by not enjoying life to the fullest and by not trusting in life I’m not really appreciating it. I’m actually wasting it worrying about things that might happen. Ram Dass says: ”Worry and fear are not tickets to the express train. They are extra baggage. You were going the way anyway”.
There are things I can’t affect yet I still spend way too much time worrying about those things. By doing so I’m not living in the moment because I’m living in a state of a fiction future. I’m also not at all appreciating life because when you do, you feel grateful and at peace and by worrying you have no room for those feelings. I also don’t have any trust in life because I am full of fear.

So how do we reverse this feeling of being a victim of life? How do we avoid getting stuck in our minds? Here’s what I’ve learned helps:

  • Appreciate life. I mean genuinely appreciate life. It’s easy to say but in order to really do so, you need to actively tell yourself how much you appreciate life as it is right now, how grateful you are to be alive. To allow yourself to feel blessed for being alive right here, right now. When you do this you will feel a gratefulness and a peacefulness and the more you have of those feelings the less room there will be for worry and fear.

 

  • Trust in life. Whether you’re religious or spiritual or none of the above you need to feel trust and find comfort in life. Trust that the universe wants the best for you and that things will always work out. With this mindset, it’s almost impossible to have irrational worries. Most importantly, when you trust that you are held and cared for, you won’t let yourself get carried away by fear and worry. They can always arrive but once they do you feel secure enough to not let them overwhelm you.

 

  • Zoom out. This is something I find helpful when I just need to snap out of that bubble of terror asap. You see, there is something very harmful about limiting our view. This tendency we have of getting soaked up in our own ego and drowning in our thoughts is absolutely devastating. When we allow ourselves to zoom out, look at ourselves and our problems from a distance there comes an instant clarity to our minds. You’ve probably heard people say this before but it deserves to be repeated: Try visualising how you zoom out from yourself, watching yourself from a distance. Then keep zooming out more and more and continue to zoom out until you are out in space, watching earth from above. Up there you will see how small you are and how insignificant your problems are in the big picture. Our ego has a tendency of inflating more and more until its almost too big to carry and by visually zooming out you burst that overinflated ego, sending it straight back to factory reset mode.

 

  • Turn to NASA. This might sound a bit weird but something that helps me snap right out of a stuck mindset is to watch youtube videos from NASA. Those videos were an astronaut show you’re around on the International space station. Giving you a tour around the station and showing the claustrophobic spaces where they eat, sleep, work and pee. Showing you the window where you can see the earth from space. This helps me so much partly because it lets me to not only visualise earth from space but actually see it in front of me. It makes it easier to realise how small I am. Another way these NASA videos help is they put my fears in such a different perspective. When I get to see and realise that there are humans going up to live on a space station and work there for months at a time with no possibility to get back whenever they want to, I become freaked out of my fucking mind. The thought of doing that is so terrifying and the fact that those people do so voluntarily makes me feel like a tiny little chicken for being afraid of whatever it is that scares me here on earth. If they are able to go to space I should be able to handle anything down here. Hello new perspective.

 

Maybe I’m the only weirdo here and all of you reading are wondering why I’m not yet in a mental hospital. But if this can help even one single person cope with a difficult mind I am beyond happy. Stay strong and remember that the reality is rarely as bad as your mind sets it out to be so every minute you spend worrying are 60 seconds of peace lost.

In the meantime you can look at this superwoman showing you around the ISS (seriously though… How can she be so chill? Which drugs is she on and where can I get them?)

xx

Lisa Belinda

Ps. The selfieboom at the top seems totally irrelevant to the post but I looked cute and thought it would be a good reminder that you can be real cute and still be mentally unstable. Ok bye.

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Shop my favourites

Hello my dear readers,

I have created my own store here on the blog. It’s a selection of all my favourite products, easily accessible for you.

You’ll find it under “SHOP” in the top right corner of the menu. I will add more and more products as I go along so be sure to check in every now and then to find more amazing products that I truly love. Simply the best of the best, collected in one place.

Enjoy!

 

xx

Lisa Belinda

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